I'm not sure where I stand anymore on easter, all I know is I still love it very much. I know this is kinda bad, but when Mom had me read the Bible this morning, and pray, I just felt so out of place doing it. It's almost like I hadn't done it in a long time, so I was rusty, or I was afraid to do it for some strange reason. It was just this awkward feeling like, should I even be doing this since my mind has changed on so many things in so short a time? I guess that's why I said in an earlier entry that my safety net is slipping further and further away.
Anyway, I'm doing a lot mor writing, even outside this journal and outside the papers which are mainly done and only need polishing up. I'm just now beginning to realize that writing has really become one of my passions along with music and all. It's just one of those things I can lose myself completly in and keep doing for long periods of time. I found this out especially today when I started writing things down and I lost all sense of time until mom came in an startled the life out of me. LOL
Anyway easter was pretty uneventful, we went over to my grandparents' house for lunch and had corn on the cob, pork roast, sweet potatoes and rols. All of it was good and I enjoyed myself immensely since I brought my laptop and was able to flow from my place of writing for about thirty to forty minutes, or at least that's what it seemed like. I suppose it's the fact that for the last four or five years, the last two included, I have been trying to find myself, trying to find out why I can do some of the things I can and what this means. Some of this I've found through conversations with friends, others I've found through writing. I'm so like rambling, so I guess I'll stop.
Till the next time,