||[14 Feb 2005|05:38pm]
Happy valentines everyone. I'm not sure how I feel about this day anymore, it's really not all that special anymore because I don't have anyone to celebrate it with. I did take my hair to Locks of Love...and it's now like to my sholders or a little shorter....gods it feels so weird not to have long hair. I've gotten all sorts of comments on how people like it which makes me think that maybe after the third year I may keep the length...but we'll see. I just like long hair that's all. It feels good to do this though and right now I'm hyper as hell. So now that I have a new look, maybe I should spring some more news on you peoples...
I have chosen to walk the native American path...unless and until I find another belief system that suits me better. I am still exploring, but now i have something I can hold on to while I do so instead of being pushed and pulled...I am still looking at wicca as a possibility because of a lot of the things they believe in...and I am still looking at others as well. I am learning still...and I will never stop being open minded, but for the time being the Native ways seem to fit me the best.
Now that I have sprung this, I suppose I had better go off and study some...Grandfather's blessings.
PS, this, by no means, means that I am denying my Christian base, it just means that I have chosen a different state of mind and a different path.